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[May. 29th, 2005|11:07 am] |
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| | broken vow - josh groban | ] |
alright, so its been a LONG time since ive updated. and im not going to write much.
MOC was awesome. i didnt do too well, but at least i got there. i met some really cool people.
i love track. i dont know WHAT id do without it. i have to thank track because its brought me closer to so many people. ive become best friends with people i didnt even know about 3 months ago. its awesome. i love my track friends so much.
its sad though that some people are leaving cause they are seniors. hopefully ill spend time with them this summer.
ive decided that i want to go to UCLA. if i get in, i will be so pleased. they have a good music department AND an awesome track team. and now that i am getting more into track and am competing at high levels, ive decided that i want to continue running and jumping in college. i really hope i get into UCLA. soccer and music used to be my life. now its turnig into track and music. i love them so much. |
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[May. 16th, 2005|10:01 pm] |
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| | true - ryan cabrera | ] |
alright so i really only have one thing to update. and that was last friday. wow, all i can say is: what the FUCK did i do?! hahaha, i really cant remember a lot of that night. yea my memory was shot in the means of about 30 minutes. yea i had about 5 times as much alcohol than i have EVER consumed. omg it was fucking great. and mike becker and jared smith are assholes!! i swear im gunna mess with them when they are drunk.. *cough* like the first weekend of summer *cough* yea. ask me more about it if you want to know more. i think there are pictures flating around school as well.
i went dancing afterwards. it was quite interesting. solely based that i was the only active white guy there and that i almost ate it MAJORLY when trying to walk down the stairs to go to the bathroom. yea it was great. natalie and i are getting drunk together more often! : ) |
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[May. 4th, 2005|06:05 pm] |
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| |  enthralled-emmy rossum | ] |
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| | all of phantom of the opera | ] |
emmy rossum (christine in the movie: Phantom of the Opera is the most gorgeous, breath-taking, loose-feeling-in-your-legs woman in the world. |
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| home... |
[Apr. 19th, 2005|09:23 pm] |
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| | nocturne in B flat minor - chopin | ] |
well, let us see, the first day back sucked. got to school expecting to have it easy in english. nope! just HAD to do star testing. which also sucked btw. history + star tests = DUM!
the band trip was fun times infinity. this past weekend was by far the best of my whole life. i have just realized how fun it is to spend three days with your best friends; seeing them pretty much 24/7. it wonderful. i got to know so many more people a lot more, just by being around them. there is WAY too much to explain online. but to sum it up: i would not trade this past weekend for ne thing in the world. plain and simple. paloma and i were best band trip buddies, and will be for life. i took many pictures and filmed about 25 minutes! yep, im bringing the pics tomorrow to school. sigh...i wish i was back in mexico...so many great memories
ive decided im not doing AP psych. my schedule is hard enough without it. i dont need another class to stress over especially cause next year is the hardest. yep, so im taking: Sym band, spanish 3, hon alg 2, APUSH, hon english, free period, and chem. yea i think thats enough of a load.
i still have some stuff to make up for school. its actually not AS bad as it thought. but its still kinda a lot.
ive decided that im going to ditch the "i need to do my work so i can be top 10 every day" and just sit back and chill a little. i mean, who the hell thinks im going to be the next einstein?...fuckin NOT ME! and im damn fucking proud. im going to actually HAVE FUN. and act like a KID. no more "oh shit, i got a B on my test...whats that gunna do to my grade?" who cares if im not in the top 10, im gunna have fun. and thats final. |
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| is it too early to start countin down the days till summer? |
[Apr. 13th, 2005|10:22 pm] |
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| | true - ryan cabrera | ] |
im really getting summer-itis. its kinda sad cause we still have like 8 more weeks. can james wait it out?
i leave for mexico in about 28 hoursish. it should be fun. paloma and i are bus buddies for life. i really hope that ill have as much fun as some other trips.
im kinda tired, but i dont want to go to bed cause im too lazy to get up. i always like the time right before i go to bed. i like to sit in my room and just think about random things. its quite pleasing. sigh... god things were giong perfectly. but we all know that nothing is perfect. so i guess it wasnt meant to be?...
w/e, only 2 more years. two more years and then im gone. im leaving so fast its not even possible. i basically just want to start my life over again, but at the age im at now. i just want to pick up and move.
why are all these thoughts rushing back to me? i know they could not be for a good reason. i just cant determine why though...
god i can be stupid sometimes.
you dont know what you do everytime you walk into the room... |
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| praying... |
[Apr. 7th, 2005|08:55 pm] |
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| | time in a bottle - jim croce | ] |
with my dad in the hospital, ive been inclined to write about life and just stuff in general.
he went in today a little before lunch cause he wasnt feeling good. so they took some minor tests on him and got the results back. nothing was out of the normal, cept his heart rate was kinda low. so hes going to stay the night and then get an MRI sometime tomorrow. if he doesnt get the results back for that by tomorrow, hell have to stay another night. i hope everything is ok. earlier today he said his left side went numb for a while. and many of us know that that is a pre-sign of a heart attack. but he hasnt had one yet, so i dont know whats up. his regular doctor said he might have had a minor stroke, but it didnt show up on his test results. so all were gunna have to wait for is his results for his MRI tomorrow. and then if ne thing is wrong, theyll just go from there.
we all take life for granted. even i do. and the current events just goes to show how much people can be selfish. just like that, things can happen out of the blue. and not many people realize that. even if things that happen out of the blue arent as serious as hospitalization, a lot of people take things for granted. friendships especially. thats all i have to say. with some people, you cant change whats already been done. and for some, you can. for those of you that can change whats happening, youre just are too blind to notice whats going on.
under this broken smile there are feelings you never knew existed...unfortunately most people have failed to realize that... but w/e. ive only got 2 more years here, and then im gone. |
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[Apr. 5th, 2005|10:14 pm] |
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| |  rejected | ] |
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| | ironic - alanis morisette | ] |
i got my permit today. i only missed 4. pretty good i guess...
ive noticed that things change. even in a time period as short a couple months. and these things are starting to irritate me. im not going to complain though. ill just act as if nothing is wrong. is that possible...?
people need to start showing up to track or im going to get really mad. people think they can just slack off. its quite sad.
is ne one counting the days untill summer? im not...but i think ill go check right now ne way.
...alright so there are officially 10 more weeks of school left. including this week.
i leave for mexico in 10 days. i hope i have fun.
its sad how poker is labeled as a "sport." i mean i know that there is a lot of statistics and knowledge to play, but seriously: its not a "sport."
i drove to marin tonight to see jo alessi play with the marin symphony. hes probly the most famous trombonist in the world. it was cool. i didnt like the piece, but he was absolutely amazing.
im thinkin about shutting down aim. this is said. people do communicate with me. itd free up some memory also. maybe i should just leave it so people can take the time (if they feel like it) to read my journal and look at my myspace. i doubt it though. i think about it. |
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| last moments of spring break... |
[Apr. 3rd, 2005|09:46 pm] |
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| | ironic - alanis morisette | ] |
this is sad. i did nothing worth mentioning over spring break. isnt spring break supposed to be filled with fun and days in the sun. well you know what? NO it was nice for like two days. yea it sucked. itd been really cool to have spring break in socal. that woulda been awesome. all those nice beaches. oh yea
the rest of the year BETTER go by fast or im gunna have to take drastic measures. you think im joking. i swear im gunna end up either having an annurism or GIVING someone an annurism.
there are people who were born writers.
there are people who were born singers.
there are people who were born players.
there are people who were born actors.
there are people who were born politicians.
there are people who were born loves.
there are people who were born rude and dont give a fuck about other people and should be jousted with a spoon.
as for me, i was born a nuetrality.
^i dont care if "nuetral" can not be used in the noun form bitches! cause in my language it IS!
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| pondering... |
[Mar. 31st, 2005|11:28 pm] |
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| | the lonely music of my life - james ginn | ] |
in attempts to keep myself occupied, i ponder; ponder on such things as to what i shouldnt ponder upon. those "what if's" always seem to enter my mind. its simply just too easy to ponder about, especially right now cause all is calm and no one can hear my inner thoughts. are "what if's" bad for you?...
this is sad, its 1150 and im playing comuter games. i should be in bed. im such a loser
i wish spring break was more fun
whats with holly and all this bio shit? shes dumb
i really not looking forward to going back to school. : /
how many more weeks till summer? how many more weeks till im an upper classmen? seems like too long. only two more years guys! then were off to college. im off and away from all this shit. i want to move. far. far far away. now
bedtime night... |
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[Mar. 30th, 2005|10:15 pm] |
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| | true - ryan cabrera | ] |
lets see, its been 8 days since my last entry. i guess im getting summer-itis? lol
breaks been eh...alright i guess. ive been spending a lot of time with kevin and andrea. well, moreso kevin cause andrea just has problems lol. you know i love you though andy! : ) went on top of sonoma mountain a few days ago. it was awesome. then went back on it tonight to see what the view is like at night. it was pretty scary goin up the mountain cause we could barely see. once we got up there though, it was beautiful. you could see all the way from san fransisco to santa rosa. when you looked up at the stars, it felt like they were right in your face. it kinda made me loose my breath it was so amazing. id go up there ne time now.
i have a new favorite song. its boulevard of broken dreams by green day. it explains a lot right now. so thats why i like it. i can relate... my shadow IS the only one that walks beside me...
i wish it was nice like it was today ALL the time. it just doesnt happen. bad weather always gets me down. i dont know why...it just does. and when its nice out like it was today, i just am in the happiest mood. its wonderful
my dad went into the emergency room tonight because he said his stomach was really bothering him. he hasnt called since he lef a few hours ago. i hope hes alright... we argued all last night, so i really hope that nothing is horribly wrong. well just have to wait...
fuck, i still have a lot of hw. all that biology shit. wtf is up with that. assigning hela homework over break. that really ticks me off.
god, listening to all tese love songs really brings back memories. mostly bad...but some good. mad i have had some good times with people. yea but those are gone. they vanished a long time ago. in some respects im glad that they did, but im mostly upset over losing them. note to guys: take charge if you have deep feelings for a girl. dont wait, if you feel so strong, do something about it right away. thatll prevent you getting/feeling played. just thought id like to tell you that.
i want to move back down to southern california. plainly and simply just want to get up and move. i dont care that i am in the middle of highschool. i really dont like it up here. the people are great, dont get me wrong. i just like the lifestyle down there more. its more laidback and chill. i want to relive those great memories of chilling on the beach with friends and family. it was awesome. and at night during the summer, you could sleep on the beaches; listening to the ocean and falling asleep under the stars. the life up here doesnt allow that. im contemplating whether i really want to go to a higher class college. i WANTED to. its just i dont want to be so stressed out my whole life. going to UC San Diego would be so great. but they dont offer the level of music that id need to become what i want. i dont know. i guess im lucky enough to have two more years to think about it...yea right, yay... |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2005|09:10 pm] |
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| | time in a bottle - jim croce | ] |
If I could save Time in a bottle
The first thing that I'd like to do
Is to save every day
'Til Eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you
If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
I'd save every day like a treasure and then,
Again, I would spend them with you
But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find them
I've looked around enough to know
That you're the one I want to go
Through time with
If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty
Except for the memory
Of how they were answered by you
But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find them
I've looked around enough to know
That you're the one I want to go
Through time with
i wish that song could be true... |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2005|06:55 pm] |
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| | youre so vain - carly simon | ] |
no homework is the life.
track was cancelled today. we have a meet tomorrow against healdsberg, i hope we do well. and then we have another meet friday at petaluma high. feel free to come if ne of you want to. just stop by after school if you have nothing else to do.
i really dont even know what to write about ne more. life just isnt the greatest. does ne one else feel like college is going to be 123% better than highschool? yea and i dont even know where id like to go.
it seems like im always talking about college. hmmm lets see.........cause thats where id rather be than here in this shit-hole.
god, kicking back on a tropical beach sounds so fucking good right now. wow this weather truly sucks.
ive completed my isearch. well i did that last night. that is why i have no homework tonight.
the honors alg 2 admittance test was surprisingly easy. im confident...i hope i get in.
so mr lochton said we should know about APUSH by friday if not thursday. this means that the news will either make or break my spring break.
how bout hon english or hon chem? does ne one have ne info on that?
im thinkin about dropping jazz...its just a nuissance and i dont learn ne thing from that class. besides, i want to have a free period next year.
i raised my C in history to a solid B...now thats fucking saying something...
im done, no one reads this and/or pays attention so im just gunna wrap up this entry. |
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[Mar. 21st, 2005|03:22 pm] |
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| | you're so vain - carly simon | ] |
wow, arent i cool. i am updating my profile from school! ha, yea no. this is really boring.
i have to wait at school for 45 minutes every day cause track doesnt start till 345. the head coach isnt even there most of the time. its really starting to annoy me. lets see: we have an away meet at healdsberg this wednesday. we also have the J&J relays on friday. thats at petaluma high...i dont know what time it starts, but if ne of you want to come, yall are more than welcome. i get to leave early from school that day also! the meet starts at 1! cool
mahler rehearsals began last saturday. its so amazing to play with such amazing musicians. i actually got to play ON Davies stage. it was amazing. i got to see how loud i actully needed to play to actually be heard lol. that hall is so fucking amazing. i wouldnt have traded that experience for ANYthing in the world.
lets see...i have 4 tests this week. plus an english project and tons of homework. bio test today wasnt that bad. i bs'ed the essay though lol. so i have my Hon Algebra 2 admittance test tomorrow. then a geometry and history test on thursday. whats with that? teachers fuckin stressin us out b4 break?! NO ME GUSTA! lol
so spring break is just around the corner. i cant wait. i dont think im doing ne thing special, but just being on break is gunna be so nice. sigh
im still a little bit dumbfounded about some things. but im not going to complain and im just going to move on...or at least try.
gosh i simply can not wait until i go off to college. just the whole new lifestyle is going to be simply wonderful. im going to TRY to get as far away from here as possible. possibly ohio or new york and the area up there. if im lucky...maybe england. i still dont know about that though. there would be so much that id have to stress over in attempts to actually go to college in england though. i dont know if i want to have to worry about that. i guess ill apply to some colleges here in california. if i end up not getting into ne colleges over around new york...maybe ill go to like santa cruz, santa barbara, or san diego. thatd be pretty cool to go to san diego cause i LOVE that lifestyl down there. especially on account that i lived down there for like 6 years. its simply wonderful. it so fricken laid back as well. i dunno...well just have to see where i end up. theres no telling where.
i should get going. running in the rain is just SO much fun. hehe, yea right. it fucking SUCKS! |
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[Mar. 18th, 2005|06:55 pm] |
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| | mahler 1 | ] |
do i have to go to the dance. i know that ill end up having fun. but im just really not in the mood. i dont know why though.
yea learned some interesting things this past week. and it just sucks. oh well im not going to complain. that would just create problems. just know that shit happens. it happened in the past, it happens now, and it always will happen. thus our conclusion: life is full of shit sometimes. but again, im not going to complain cause im not a whiner...i just keep things in. thats the way it is with me.
so on a happier note...my rehearsal with SFYO starts tomorrow...it should be fun. im also going for my permit tomorrow, hopefully i pass.
so i have about 8 hours of orchestra rehearsal this weekend. oh well, i like it. so thats cool.
im so grateful that the week is over. it went by so slow. this past week definately makes mt top 5 worst weeks ever.
spring break starts next week. yay........
i just cant wait till we graduate. i wanna get out of this crap hole of a city. it sucks.
im done complaining... |
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| ne one else feeling like this might be a REALLY long 12 more weeks? |
[Mar. 16th, 2005|06:44 pm] |
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| | dreamin - selena | ] |
and the count down begins...just about 12 more weeks of school. wow, this year has gone by really fast. it just seems like last month that i started school as a sophomore. and now we only have like 12 weeks left. *sigh*
i went in to get help from ms weir at lunch today. it was nice just talking to her like a normal person. not as a student. we talked about college. and then she commented on my work ethics, and for once, she actually complimented me. it felt really nice: the reassurance of a teacher who knows a ton.
the dance is this friday. i cant wait. its gunna the so much fun, andi hope the night will be complete...
ive decided that short and frequent updates are better than essay one once every 5 days. so this probly wont be too long.
gosh, i have so many plans for things...i hope they all work...
im going for my permit on saturday morning, b4 i go off for the Mahler rehearsal. Erin is going to so kindly give me a ride there...: ) i cant wait. were so gunna jam the whole way down!
i have a lot of hw, including weirs infamous take home essay. and dinner is seved, so i will be going. |
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[Mar. 11th, 2005|10:08 pm] |
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| | woman - maroon 5 | ] |
wow, is this slacking because of the weather? or is it just my laziness.......probably more of the latter.
i know its not good to always update on days where im not in the best mood. but i just need to write to get my feelings out. if i had a journal (like an actual book where i wrote what happened each day) id write in it. and then i could REALLY pour my emotions out. but i guess this is the next best thing; you all can read it. which means i should limit what i say.
tonight was pretty fun, on account that it got my mind off things...untill the car ride home where we listened to some love songs, which reminded me of people...well person. so kevin, andrea, and myself basically just drove around all night. we first went to copperfields, then to get italian ice-cream, then to 7-11 for slurpess, then just drove for a while. we visited the mansions on top of a couple hills downtown. oh my gosh. those houses are amazing. they also have the best view of the city. all the lights and the whole city looked so pretty. and it was perfect out. i wish i had a towel to lay on and just star-gaze; it was so beautiful. it woulda been the perfect spot for a random date. like the one where you close her eyes, and tell her not to open them untill you say. and then you drive up to the hill and then guide her out of the car and then open her eyes for her. sigh. yea
so far so good. kinda. im doin alright with full detail. i could be adding more i just choose not to cause yall might get bored with my life, oh well.
this weather is giving me summer-itis. and i know its not going to last. thank the lord that i have a track meet tomorrow. that means more time in the sun!! i wish a certain someone could be there to keep me company. there arent a lot of people going to the meet tomorrow, so ill bet im going to be a little bored/lonely. hopefully ill do well. im pretty confident ive improved since last year. so well just have to wait and see.
college...yea not even gunna start thinking about that. too many things are gunna make me loco. and im also only a sophomore.
you know what that means...12 more weeks untill im an upper-classmen. that also means 12 more weeks till summer. and there are notable things that i can look forward to to make the year finish up quickly...i hope.
i just cant really explain myself right now. and i dont think that i am going to cause i dont want to come off as a complainer. cause i know that there are people out there that have it tons worse than i do. i guess i just need to suck up and adjust. of course there are many people that are just as depressed as frequently as i am...right? yea........
so mahler rehearsals begins next weekend. im really excited. hopefully well be able to maybe catch a wuick dinner after. or maybe just like spend some time in the city if no one is busy. that might be asking a little much though. ¿quién sabe?
theres a dance next friday. im pretty stoked about that. i hope its better than the last dance. i hope for other things as well...
i should probably get to bed cause i need to wake up early tomorrow for my meet at analy. feel free to come if you want. i dont care
my face is simply blank like an un-painted canvas...and i just cant take it anymore. |
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[Mar. 5th, 2005|09:44 am] |
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| | solo piece for today - ferdinand david | ] |
now its only been 3 days since my last entry. im inproving...
lets see. last thursday was a bitch. i had my chapter test in geometry. it went ok. the sub was a little dum cause you would go up and ask her a question about a proof and shed be like well, youre missing this step here. or if youd ask her about a problem cause you got two different answers but did it the right way shed be like: well this is what she has so youre close. and shed show you the answer key. yep...so i kinda...checked my answers. lol and then i had my huge history exam. that went ok i guess. weir's multiple choice are always hard. i thought it wasnt TERRIBLE but at the same time i know i didnt get an A lol. and then the short answers werent too bad either. and then after school....lol.... i had the APUSH admittance exam. im sure i could have written better. but then againm who write their absolutley BEST essay in 45 minutes. lol im confident though that i will get in...hopefully lol. and then there was GQ. it was hilarious! hopefully next year ill be able to see the hwole thing!! GRR! lol
alright, so i have a competition today! my solo piece is coming along pretty well. i just hope i dont play it like i did at the concert thursday night. and then my duet with jon is good as well. i really hope i get a command performance. that would be really cool. ::crosses fingers:: and at the same time ::knocks on wood:: lol!
lets see, what shall i do today after my competition. i do not know! probly hang out with some friends yo. lol. maybe some hw? cause im studious like that... lol.
i saw a study/help book for AP US History at Copperfield's last night. i think i might get it. it looked really helpful.
alright, so i think im going to play my trombone for a few short minutes. just so when i perform, it wont sound like crap! |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2005|05:30 pm] |
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| | Iris - Goo Goo Dolls | ] |
ive just been in a slump with updating. im sorry everyone.
i know not a lot of you read this. so i shouldnt bother writing elaborate explanations of how my day went. but i choose to ne way. well, i dont think im going to write a lot right now cause im just tired and not in the mood. again, you wouldnt mind cause youre probably one out of 5 whole people who read this.
life just sucks sometimes. one minute youre enjoying your day...and then like 5 minutes later you just feel like shit cause youre either tired, bored, or depressed. see for me, its the latter. i dont know whats wrong with me. to be frank, sometimes i dont even care because it happens so often i dont realize it. nothing really ever progresses for me. life is one of them. im finding myself having to quit many things that i enjoy and love with all my heart. take soccer for an example. my life is just getting to hectic that im ending up having to quit soccer. the one thing (besides music) that i could live my whole life off doing. its quite depressing knowing that ill probly never play competitive soccer ever again. i had to let my team down by telling them that i wont be able to compete in the association cup (which is pretty much like prelims for state cup). it really sux.
i need something that is steady in my life. not that music isnt steady for me...its already taking over my life. dont get me wrong though, i absolutely, hands down, love music. and i DO want to make a career out of it because i think that id make it being a professional trombonist. but do they seriously start their career and 15. now im sure Jo Alessi (principle chair for the New York Phil), Mark Lawrence (principle chair for SF Symphony), or Christian Lindberg (world renound professional trombonist who is probably the best soloist in the world) did NOT start their professional career as early as what is happening for me. yes i love music with all my heart and wouldnt give it up for anything in the world. but, quite frankly, im pissed how its taking over my life. now back to the "having something steady in my life" thing... i just dont have ne thing. soccer is gone. track is about to go. i dont know whats going to go next. not a girlfriend because i lack in that department unfortunately. soon enough im going to be out of highschool and im going to basically loose my family. (dont get me wrong, i am so excited to go off to college) this sounds like something i would write like the week before my highschool graduation, but its what im feeling now. to counter-act my feelings of being afraid that i am going to loose a lot, i am extremely excited to actually go OFF TO college. its like half of me wants to stay, and half of me wants to go. when i leave i will meet tons of new people and, with regrets to leaving, move on from the people who have so much shaped my life. thats probly enough complaining for one day. im sure you guys are like: when is he going to shut up. sorry if i come over as a complainer.
on a happier note, i get to perform Mahler's 1st with SF Youth Symphony (no pun intended) im really excited for that. hopefully ill get to spend more time with my close friends. those of whom i dont get to see that often. maybe go out to dinner after rehearsal or sumthin...i dunno. and i will also get to meet new people. yay to that.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
i love you....... |
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[Feb. 26th, 2005|03:29 pm] |
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| | dreamin of you - selena | ] |
hmm, its been a while since i have updated. i dont normally slack off like this. i am sorry to all of you whom i have lost because of my laziness...
alright with that said...the rest of my day is going to involve laziness! so i got bowling for my sister's birthday and then im going to see the SF symphony at 8 and sit on my ass for a couple hours. dont you just love it. lol
wow i wish you were here with me. its killing me how we cant spend time together always. i know youre busy. i want the best for you. i just cant wait untill things settle down so we can just spend time together.
tennis was fun. we did serena williams impressions. it was hilarious. and then kevin about put a hole in my fricken leg by hitting me with a ball from about 5 feet away. oh well, im only bruised...it shouldnt be fine lol. and then i hit andrea and she bruised also. lol it was great though. we had a good time.
kevin finally got his liscense! teehee....we know what that means now! another driver to drive people places! hells yea!
i tied my soccer game this morning, oh well.
i think im going to practice my trombone. norcal/allstate auditions are really hard this year. meaning i should start practicing now. |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2005|06:36 pm] |
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| | awayday-allstate piece | ] |
wow, ok...so mixed emotions right now. actually....very mixed emotions. let me list:
excited
contemplative
apathetic
loved
bored
lazy
sad
yes the list goes on, i just didnt feel like sharing it all with you.
i cant say enough about how much fun allstate was. gosh, it was unbelievably amazing. its so sad that i wont be able to see some people ever again cause theyre goin off to college. : (
things are possibly progressing...i really hope they are. my feelings are so strong...
a girl called me today and asked me if i wanted to do a gig. it pays 60 bucks a conert...and ill be doing around 4-5. MUAHAHA!
yes so i barfed today in track. yep it sucked. and then i got a headache. and now i have a ton of hw. this suh-ux. |
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